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some people just suck royally.

take me, for example.

*sigh* i was being so good...didn't schedule any of those dirty work shifts, read most hours of the day...but here i am, the day of my classes, and i still feel unprepared. out of practice. definitely under-read.

i stopped working around 4 pm yesterday. i rented "the pianist" and convinced myself that it was kinda like research. i can fill about 4 seconds of my oral presentation mentioning "the pianist" today. THAT will be its eventual worth.

let's break down the next round of obligations and the timeline:
* finish handout for class today, practice the oral presentation itself
* read articles for discussion for sound of history class. have no clue what they are, how long they are, etc.
* start book for next monday's french revolution class. this one looks hopeful, though - it's about violence. i like violence.
* keep ATTEMPTING to read book on germanization of the east by nazi chicks
* email history department regarding prof. h's requirements? naaah, maybe next week.

i can't believe i've got like 2 weeks to finish everything. 2 MEASLY ROTTEN WEEKS. (and when i say "everything" i mean 1) 15 minute audio project, 2) however-many-page research paper, 3) annotated bibliography and 3 page prospectus for major research paper. oh yeah, throw in another one of those horrible book review/oral presentations for the french revolution class while we're at it, too. plus reading two more books for the the polish jews class, on top of all the other reading and articles...sorry, i should have clarified "everything" beforehand but it would seem a bit whiney.)

i haven't emailed fred yet, but i think i will do so and tell him i haven't been taking the stupid pills very regularly. if my problem is focus, how could i possibly be expected to focus on taking certain small pills at a certain time of day, every day? huh? c'mon, now - really.