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can you believe that i'm sick once again?

my doctor believes that my pattern is once a month, but i'm noticing another factor at play. my horoscope really said it all:

TAURUS (April 20-May 20):
Take care with your diet. Get enough rest. If you are upset in any way, you could feel depressed, overworked, and especially burdened. You may not feel well, and that could cause you to overreact. Do what you can, and make sure to structure your time and energy to avoid becoming tired. If you are overwhelmed, you might get sick to get out from under the pressure.

i get sinus infections the week before assignments. tests, papers, you name it, i'll blow it. it's all part of my brain's master plan - "oh you didn't fail that because you're DUMB...nooo, it was because you were SICK!"

well, you know what brain? if i hadn't been sick, i would have at least been able to TRY to study. with this, i just get snot all over my books.

(oh, and it's the worst feeling to sneeze "all over yourself". you know what i mean. yeech. no going out in public for this plague freak.)

but the best thing - my girlfriend doesn't seem to believe that i'm sick! the phone conversation last night:

"...but you're not really sick..."
"EXCUSE ME? would you like me to bring over all my snotty tissues?"
"i mean, isn't a sinus infection like a condition that needs to be prevented?" (translation: isn't this your own damn fault?)
"UH, noooooo....i have allergies, and sinus problems, and a sensitivity to sinusitis - sinus infections. i can't just stop them from happening!!!"
"oh...well..just saying is alll...etc.."

so yeah. i'm getting the same bad rep i got in elementary school, suffering from BLINDINGLY obvious symptoms of childhood depression - i would have a headache and stomachache practically every day at school. and after a while, instead of trying to figure out what was wrong with me, they just stopped believing it. it didn't help that i also (thanks to ear problems) have terrible motion sickness, and the ride to school was a 40-minute stop-and-start jerk-athon through the streets of seoul (south korea).

i'm not too sure what to do. to get an appointment with my doctor usually takes a week, and she'll just put me on the same old antibiotics again, or worse, recommend that i get weekly allergy shots. or tell me to see a shrink, which i'm already doing.

i have iota's stag party on saturday! and i won't be allowed to drink or smoke or engage in any debauchery whatsoever! this sucks. *hmph*

oh yeah, iota works with c., my girlfriend's evil ex. she was obliged to invite her, as other workmates are coming. this is iota's rendition of the conversation:

there's no story to it, really. i said 'i'm a, er, having a bachelor party on saturday...'
'you are?? how weird!' (except c doesn't use exclimation points in her talk)
'yeah, s & k are throwing it for me'
'wow they're still together? they must be really compatible'
'yeah they are, they're moving in together really soon'
'wow, good. what are the plans for saturday'
'well, we're going to a strip clu-'
'no thanks'.

the end.

i thought that was pretty funny. i hate her so. (c., not iota.) (though i am a little surprised that she didn't just make her "face" at the mention of my name or my girlfriend's name...and that she said "good"...hmm. oh well, still hate her. too bad so sad.