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ugh. i am feeling so burnt out today and i can't really figure it out. i don't know whether it has to do with it being the eve of my 4 year anniversary. maybe it's now hitting my brain. maybe it was the dream with the small lizards i was trying to keep alive, and the side story of my father, my brother, and prof. h. i have no clue. it was a fucked up dream. and yes, i find myself really missing prof h. today.

i tried surreptitiously stalking again yesterday, but no dice. i don't know which route the guy takes, but it might not be the one i'm thinking. i think the only way i would be sure to "run into" him like i'm so passively trying to do is to sit outside his classroom ten minutes before the class, and wa-hey! there he is.

*sigh*

i find out about my grad school status in march, at least from my alma mater. the other school didn't give me a time period.

*sigh*

work is surprisingly good. it's busy, but i don't mind being here, i like the people so far...not too much stress. i knock on my wood laminate desk, though.

i've got me a big ol' coffee in front of me to hopefully inspire me today.

oh, and i'm also planning on seeing back to back documentaries on aileen wuornos tonight. that might pep me up.