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oy i have a headache...

so what happened yesterday with the paper/exam/stuff? i finished the paper at about 3 in the morning and as i was printing the Royal Piece of Crap - the inkjet ran out of ink. luckily i am a woman of many skills, so i filled it up and got the show back on the road.

it is such a bad paper. so simple. so few references. and i don't really care at this point!

most of my psychology career has been based on the magic number 50. as long as i pass the courses, i meet the course requirements, and i can trick myself into believing that this is success. unfortunately, this mode of operation was revealed to me as "not-the-best-in-the-world" when i was delightfully informed by the psych department that i could not continue a major in the program, thanks to my so damn poor GPA. 'oh well,' i thought, 'i'll just take it as a minor!' a v. good strategy indeed.

so what else to take? i would need another minor...i am officially signed up in the sexual diversity studies program, but i failed the core course two years back and haven't continued since then! they still invite me to their nice wine-and-cheese parties, so i don't bother telling them that i have left their fold...

i decided that instead of "taking a year off" like i have wanted to since i started university, i would "take whatever the hell i wanted to" and basically go back to first year - a little of this, some more of that. i have learned my lesson that a science degree in psychology, at a school that is focused on research, is NOT something in which i can do well.

so i'm taking sociology, women in history (a history course, not women's studies - despite my proud declaration of Feminism and Lesbiosity, there are only so many oppressive "isms" that i can sit through without my head exploding in many EXpressive directions), a psychoanalytic thought class, and for good measure, because i still believe i can get this stupid degree, another psych requirement.

(so what was my point with this entry? that i have a headache. that my paper sucked. YES! that my paper sucked.)

um, my paper sucked.