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i remember my dream now and probably why i was whining or crying or whatever!

i was on a show like survivor and i had to eat bugs. i thought, no problem! (um, half of the plate was hummus and pita and stuff) so i thought i'd make a sandwich and everything would go down smoothly - except the bugs i had to eat were ladybugs! i couldn't do it! i tried to eat a couple but they were really bitter and i kept on thinking about the goo that comes out of a bug when you squish it, and they were crunching (of course they were live)

i was crying about this and when i thought i had done it, there were like three more on my plate! i flat-out refused, and i had the exoskeletons of the ladybugs stuck in my teeth (like popcorn kernel skins) and when i took them out, they were still moving! i said that i don't care if it disqualified me, and i wouldn't get the chance of a million bucks, i wouldn't do it. and so i was like the second person to be kicked out, and they said "don't do it! there is nothng out there for the second person kicked out! no endorsements!"

but i wouldn't eat those ladybugs AT ALL. yecch. i can still taste them.

k.