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i used to write better than this...

*sigh* things are pooey. just incredible business, then feeling like shit, then business again. i'm not quite sure how i should be acting since it's so up-in-the-air all the time.

the lines of communication are opening up between socks and myself. i think she is ready to tell me the truth about her feelings, and i am ready to react truthfully in kind. i don't know what that means for "US" but i would like some change, some resolution, some...something.

today was the first time in weeks that i haven't bawled my face off during a fred appointment. it felt fucking great.

oh, and i got a raise at work without having to ask for it....