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NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
IT'S NOT DECEMBER
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

fuck this!
fuck this shit all to hell!

(does this mean i'm not to be smoking anymore, if i said that november was my smoking month??)

my audio project has to have some semblance of "completion" for tomorrow's class - i have to present it, as well. now is the time for a concerned/crooked-mouthed-emoticon: : that looks like shit. who's in charge here?!!?

i recorded some holocaust testimonies to minidisc last night, then smoked a little weed (ok, i admit, i smoked a little before starting! i'm evil AND stupid!) and then decided i needed a family guy break. and then fell asleep during said break.

gaaaaaaaaaaaah.

i believe i will be pulling an all-nighter of yore tonight! the great thing is i'm totally aware of all this stuff i need - have yet to really compile - which would require library requests, leaving the apartment spending precious precious writing time travelling, etc - but I HAVE NOT YET DONE IT.

you know what? i blame the pills! i TOTALLY blame the happy pills which have gone and PARALYZED me from the neck up, making me thing that "evvvverything's going to be ooooooooookay....." and therefore making me completely lazy and content when i should be STRESSED THE FUCK OUT.

and now?
IT'S DECEMBER,
AND I'M STRESSED THE FUCK OUT.

gaaaaaaaaaaaah, i say.